By Subhash K Jha BOLLYWOOD: In a rare interview with Subhash K Jha, Pooja Bhatt opens up about her life, priorities, pets and her peeves: Q: Pooja, how come we donât see you on screen any more? I am not offered anything. No one wants to cast me! Earlier they though I was a producer-directorâs daughter, hence difficult. Now I am a producer-director myself. So you can imagine how intimidated they are. The last person who was brave enough to cast me was Rahul Bose in Everybody Says Iâm Fine. He gave me no choice. He is my dearest friend. I confided in him about how disillusioned I was by the business of cinema and stardom. He offered me a role. I was aghast. âWhat kind of a friend are you? I just told you Iâm sick of the industry and youâre offering me a role!â He insisted that only I could play Tanya. But I am so glad he insisted.I am indebted to him. Though I havenât met Rahul since Everybody Says Iâm Fine he reiterated his friendship for me by insisting I do the role. When a friend insists the least you can do is succumb. Q: We havenât seen you on screen since then? After Rahul no one offered me any role except Padam Kumar. I was too petrified to respond to his offer. Filmmakers think I am Mahesh Bhattâs daughter, so Iâd ask too many questions. They thought the same way about the great Tanuja. She had the balls and the gall to be a thinking actress and they never allowed her to succeed to the extent that she deserved. I remember meeting her during the year of Zakham after a popular awards function. She told me she had seen me in Zakham and had connected with my performance like never before. Then Tanujaji said something to me that broke my heart. âDonât think this industry is only for the men . Claim and inherit your space because you have it in you.â Years later when I met her again she had forgotten her advice. But I remembered and cherished it. But you know that? I enjoy just being a producer and a home maker. I love being in-charge. I love being the tortured and tormented soul . I am a Piscean. I enjoy the real-life drama fully.
I donât know. But I do know that I have a conscience and moral values. And I think a conscience is what finally matters You wonât see me compromising just because it is convenient for me to do so. A friend suggested that I write my autobiography. I can write a book. But Iâve to tell the truth. And I canât do that because it involves other peopleâs lives. What would we be without those who are part of our lives? As I grow older I realize that just because Iâm so obsessed with the truth it doesnât mean that everyone else in my life is equally comfortable with it. So either I drop the idea of an autobiography or wait for everyone I love to just die(laughs).Thatâs a terrible thought. Cancel the autobiography. Q: Being a woman how have you managed to survive as a producer? I was Indiaâs youngest producer .I was 21 when I produced my first film. Iâve continued to produce films because of the people who have worked with me and supported me. [caption id="attachment_81202" align="alignnone" width="496"] Pooja Bhatt poses with two hunks.[/caption] Q: But so many actors have betrayed you? Actors betray. Technicians donât. Movies are made by technicians. My DOP, light men, art directorâ¦these are the people who have stayed with me over the years. Theyâd give their lives for me. I safeguard their interests like a communist. My dear friend Randeep Hooda says I am more a unionist than an actor. I reminded him I was a star and not just an actor.Tell me something. How many of todayâs stars know their spot boys and light boys by name? For me the guy who holds the thermocol is more important than the guy who stands in front of it. Call me leftist or Maoist . But thatâs the way I am. And itâs because of my deep bonding with my technicians that I am able to make my movies economically and theyâre much better-looking than my fatherâs films. Q: You really think your films are better looking? Yes. I am only in competition with the people who taught me cinema.I am not in competition with anyone in the industry.Who gives a damn about the industry? What industry? Everything I learnt about production came from my uncle Mukesh Bhatt. Mahesh Bhatt has taught me all that I know about sharing an equation with people.What my father has taught me is that you can lie to anybody but not to yourself. Q: Do you often come face to face with the truth about yourself? Recently I went to Ooty after 15 years. My memory was hit by all those films that I shot there like Dil Hai Ki Manta Nahin and Sadak. I found Gautam Rajadhyakshaâs book with his pictures of me in a store. I had posed nude long before anyone else had. Gautam had said, âThe only person Pooja hurts with her candidness is herself.â You have to be ready for the hurt. I believe when you are given a special life you owe it to the universe to be yourself. Iâve to rage against the wind. Iâve to experience the pitch-dark to relish the dawn. I think in India women with their own mind are still resented. A woman with a vagina, boobs and a brain is considered very intimidating. How do you deal with Bipasha Basu or Sunny Leone moving away after getting their breakthrough project from you? I let the film industry deal with them. There is no loyalty in this business, donât you know that? If people say thank you after being given a break then I am lucky.With Sunny Leone, it was the question of , who would bell the cat? I had the gall to do that. I remember Sanjay Dutt sending a message to Dino Morea,saying they wanted Sunny Leone for an item song in Ram Gopal Varmaâs Department. If they wanted her, they shouldâve asked me. Instead Dino asked, âBaba (Dutt) Bol raha hai ussey Sunny Leone chahiye.â I replied, âBol do Baby bol rahi hai , nahin.â Then Ramu sent me a message, saying he would be able to shoot Sunny much better than me as his was the male perspective. I asked Ramu if he had seen my poster of Jism 2. I sent it to him. He asked me to trust him with Sunny. But why should I trust his male perspective when I was the one to bell the cat? You canât suddenly come and steal my thunder away. Ms Leone was back then condemned for being a porn star and how dare she, etc etc. Yes. My father and I got the point. â¦I am finished with all the ladies that I worked with. For me their stardom isnât of any interest. Years ago I was offered Rahu Rawailâs Bekhudi the film that launched Kajol. My father wanted to  know whether I wanted to be  a star or an actor. The choice for me was clear. I chose Daddy. I am proud of Daddy, Zakahm and even Prem Deewane and Everybody Says Iâm Fineâ¦Even now if someone is willing to cast me Iâd be happy to act. Itâd be an absolute joy to be on a set and told what to do. Contrary to belief Iâm not a control freak. I wish my men realized that. If they told me what to do Iâd have done it. Are you happily married to Manish Makhija? Weâve been married for almost 11 years. So you can call it âhappily marriedâ. But I really donât know what happiness is. And I donât want to know. Happiness is highly overrated. The truth is, I wouldnât be in in this marriage if it was untruthful. So far I have not been tempted to look over my shoulder. If I do my husband would be the first to know. But we donât see you two together? But thatâs the way we choose to live. Today I see Karan Johar finally attain puberty at 42. Everybody in the film industry is now discovering that turning pointing in their lives at 40-plus. I got there at 17. Iâve been there, done that, bought the teeshirt and sold it. How wonderful that I go to bed at 10 pm and wake up at 5 am instead of going to bed at 5 am. Thanks to Manisha Koirala and me, todayâs girls admit to a boyfriend. They even kiss in public. I was very happy kissing on screen. But if you asked me to sing a double-meaning song like Sarkayee lo khatiya I wouldnât be able to do it. I am proud I made Tammanna at 21 and Jism at 29. I want to ask you if any of my contemporaries are doing what I am? No. End of discussion. Imtiaz Ali thinks marriage makes an individual a mediocre person. Your take? It depends on whom you are married to.My happiness has never depended on the men in my life, be it my father, lover or husband.I found my happiness in my own heart.I made my mistakes.And Iâm proud of them. Your heart is that of a gypsy? Of course it it. And thank God for that. I am great organizer, a great motivator and my unit dotes on me. The reason I make films cheaper than my father and uncle is because Iâve more heart. They canât be on field during the job. I can.And I am.